eclectic dreams
we are all just borrowed energy. we come from the supernovas, the stars, and the moons. one day we will return our energy in the form of a star or yet another planet, perhaps with life. so you see, we never really die. this is a cycle. we are infinite ∞
IMPROVEMENTS AND SHIT
1. Continue to dress the way I am and get cooler pieces. Maybe start thrifting. MAYBE.
2. Buy lots of accessories. Everythingggg included: nose rings, earrings, bracelets, belly button rings, necklaces!!! Maybe a toe ring to wear on occasion when I’m feeling like a 90’s chick.
3. SHOES: I need a nice pair of pointy toed pumps. So far, so good though :)
4. Exercise. My parents didn’t buy me free runs for nothing and I pay for a gym membership plus I have body rock. If I don’t have a perfect body by March, I’ll seriously punch myself. I have all the tools, I just gotta stop being lazy.
5. Eat right. Not that I eat bad, but I definitely need to cut some starches and sugars from my diet. Especially late at night. Which leads me to …
6. Learn how to cook. Make at least one new recipe every week. This can include an entree dish, appetizer or dessert.
7. Also, drink more water. And alcohol.
8. Go out more. Not necessarily to parties and clubs, but just enjoy life and get out there.
9. Continue Studying. My grade goals for this semester: Calc 2 : A, Physics: A, Physics w/ lab: A, Japanese: A, Genetics: A. I know I can do it.
10. Finally get my iPhone. Its been too long baby.
11. Read at least one new book every month.
12. Be more positive and not complain so much. I can be quite the negative nancy and I need to quit it. Negative vibes just attract negativity and I don’t need that right now.
13. Shadow a doctor or volunteer.
14. IF I DO ALL THESE THINGS I’LL BE PERFECT!!!!
- Angry / Displeased: (*≧m≦*) (>_<) (,,#ﾟДﾟ) ヽ(ｏ`皿′ｏ)ﾉ o(>< )o ｏ( ><)o ヽ(≧Д≦)ノ （＞д＜） （;≧皿≦） [○･｀Д´･○] ヽ(#`Д´)ﾉ Σ(-`Д´-ﾉ；)ﾉ (((p(>o<)q))) (/ﾟДﾟ)/ ( ¬д¬。) ヽ(#`Д´)ﾉ (¬､¬) （；¬＿¬) (;¬_¬) (；¬д¬) (≧σ≦) o(-`д´- ｡) ヽ(●-`Д´-)ノ (*￣m￣) (´Д｀) (；￣Д￣） (¬_¬)ﾉ (＃｀д´)ﾉ (」゜ロ゜)」 Σ(▼□▼メ) (〝▼皿▼） (▼皿▼#) ヽ( ｀0´)ﾉ (︶︹︺) (≧０≦) （。＞。＜。） 【><。】 （━┳━◇━┳━）(━┳━＿＿━┳━) (━┳━○━┳━) (━┳━ _ ━┳━) (┳◇┳) {{|└(>o< )┘|}} ＼(＠O＠)／ （≧▼≦；) ＼(〇O〇)／ s(・｀ヘ´・;)ゞ（▼へ▼メ）＼(`O´θ／ θ＼(；￢_￢) ヽ(｀⌒´メ)ノ 凸(-0-メ) 凸(｀△´＋） 凸(｀0´)凸 凸(｀⌒´メ)凸 ＼(｀0´)／ -`д´- (>人<)
- Apologizing: m(_ _)m m(._.)m ｍ（．＿．）ｍ （ﾉ´д｀） (シ_ _)シ <(_ _)> ＜(。_。)＞ ｍ（＿ ＿；；ｍ m(￢0￢)m
- Bears: (￣(エ)￣) (｡･ω･｡) (●｀･(ｴ)･´●) (*ノ・ω・） 川´･ω･`川 ( (ﾐ´ω`ﾐ)) ヾ(T(エ)Tヽ) ＼(・｀(ｪ)・)/ ⊂(ο･㉨･ο）⊃ (^(エ)^) (^(I)^) (￣(ｴ)￣)ﾉ ⊂(￣(工)￣)⊃ ⊂(^(工)^)⊃ ⊂(・(ェ)・)⊃ (*￣(ｴ)￣*) ヾ(´(ｴ)｀ﾉﾞ (／(ｴ)＼) ⊂(￣(ｴ)￣)⊃ “(`(エ)´)ノ (｀(エ)´)ﾉ Ψ(￣(ｴ)￣)Ψ (/-(ｴ)-＼) (´(エ)｀) ヽ(￣(ｴ)￣)ﾉ (／￣(ｴ)￣)／ ┏((＝￣(ｴ)￣=))┛ (●￣(ｴ)￣●) (♥ó㉨ò)ﾉ♡ ・㉨・ (ó㉨ò)
- Cats: (=^･ｪ･^=) (=^‥^=) ( =①ω①=) (=^･^=) o(^・x・^)o d(=^･ω･^=)b V(=^･ω･^=)v (=ＴェＴ=) (=;ェ;=) (=｀ω´=) ヽ(=^･ω･^=)丿 (=^･ω･^)y＝ ＼(=^‥^)/'` (^-人-^) ヽ(^‥^=ゞ) (^・ω・^ ) (=^-ω-^=) b(=^‥^=)o (.=^・ェ・^=) （=´∇｀=） ヾ(=ﾟ･ﾟ=)ﾉ ~(=^‥^)ノ ~(=^‥^)/ (=ｘェｘ=) (=；ェ；=) (=｀ェ´=) (^･o･^)ﾉ" <(*ΦωΦ*)> (^._.^)ﾉ └(=^‥^=)┐ ='①。①'=
- Confused: (´･_･`) (◎_◎;) (｀_´)ゞ (◎-◎；) (・_・ヾ (￣(エ)￣)ゞ (-_-)ゞ゛ ('◇')? ヽ(゜Q。)ノ？ (´｀;) ？ 【・ヘ・?】 【・_・?】 ( ・◇・)？ (゜-゜) ヾ(´･ ･｀｡)ノ" ｢(ﾟﾍﾟ) ( ?´_ゝ｀) o(´^｀)o (´−｀) ﾝｰ (」ﾟヘﾟ)」 (•ิ_•ิ)? 「(°ヘ°) (。ヘ°) ヽ(゜Q。)ノ？ (´｀;) ？ 〈(゜。゜) (゜。゜) く（＾_・）ゝ (^～^;)ゞ
- Dancing: ヘ(^_^ヘ) (ノ^_^)ノ o(^^o) (o^^)o (ノ´＿ゝ｀）ノ ヾ(^ ^ゞ (ノ‥)ノ ( ﾉ^ω^)ﾉﾟ ヾ(*´∇`)ﾉ ヾ(･ω･*)ﾉ (*ﾉ´□`)ﾉ 。(⌒∇⌒。) (。⌒∇⌒)。 〜(￣▽￣〜) (〜￣▽￣)〜 〜(^∇^〜） （〜^∇^) 〜(￣△￣〜) (〜￣△￣)〜 ┗(｀ー´)┓ ┏(｀ー´)┛ ┗(＾0＾)┓ (＾0＾)┛ (ノ￣ー￣)ノ ヘ(￣ー￣ヘ) ヘ(￣ω￣ヘ) (ノ￣ω￣)ノ ヘ(^o^ヘ)(ノ^o^)ノ ヾ(-_- )ゞ ヾ(＠^∇^＠)ノ (ﾉ≧∀≦)ﾉ ＼(^ω^＼) (ﾉﾟ▽ﾟ)ﾉ ヽ(ﾟｰﾟ*ヽ) ヽ(*ﾟｰﾟ*)ﾉ (ﾉ*ﾟｰﾟ)ﾉ ヽ(*´Д｀*)ﾉ (o´･_･)っ ヾ(*д*) ヽ(°◇° )ノ ヽ( °◇°)ノ (ノ°ο°)ノ (ﾉ･o･)ﾉ ヾ(^^ゞ) ヾ(ﾟ∀ﾟゞ) ヽ(´ー`)ﾉ ヾ（*⌒ヮ⌒*）ゞ 〈( ^.^)ノ ┌（★ｏ☆）┘ └（★ｏ★）┐ ♪(┌・。・)┌
- Dead: x_x；） (*_*) (×_×;） (×_×# (#+_+) (+_+) ヾ(×× ) ﾂ （Ω_Ω） へ（><#）ノ (＊0＊;)
- Dogs: Uo･ｪ･oU ∪･ω･∪ U｡･ｪ･｡U ▽・ω・▽ ▽・ｗ・▽ Ｕ^皿^Ｕ ｖ・。・Ｖ ＵＴｪＴＵ (^・(I)・^) U・♀・U ｏ（Ｕ・ω・）⊃ (^・x・^) (U・x・U) ▼o・ェ・o▼ U＾ェ＾U U￣ｰ￣U
- ┌U･ｪ･U┘ └@(･ｪ･)@┐ ヾ(●ω●)ノ (〓￣(∵エ∵)￣〓)
- Drinking: ｏ口(・∀・ ) (。・・)_且 且_(ﾟ◇ﾟ；)ノﾞ ~旦_(^O^ ) ( ゜Д゜)⊃旦 ( ´･ω･`)_且~ ( ^-^)_旦"" (*^◇^)_旦 (*｀▽´)_旦~~ ~(=^‥^)_旦~ (＾-＾)＿日 ~~旦_(･o･;) ( -_-)旦~ (＃´ー´)旦 且_(・_・ )
- Evil / Sneaky: (・｀ω´・) ψ(｀∇´)ψ （｀ー´） (｡･｀ω´･｡) o(｀ω´*)o | ｀Д´| (｀ε´)(σ- `д･´) (｀Д´*) （=｀〜´=） (ﾒ｀ﾛ´)/ Ψ(｀▽´)Ψ (#｀∀´)_Ψ (*-`ω´- )人 (ц｀ω´ц*) (｀∀´)Ψ ψ(*｀ー´)ψ Ψ(｀◇´)Ψ “ψ(｀∇´)ψ
- Greetings / Goodbyes: ヾ(＾∇＾) (^-^*)/ ( ﾟ▽ﾟ)/ ( ^_^)／ (^o^)/ (^ _ ^)/ ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ (ﾉ´∀｀*)ﾉ (ヾ(´･ω･｀) ☆ﾐ(o*･ω･)ﾉ ＼(＾▽＾*) (*＾▽＾)／ (￣▽￣)ノ ヾ(-_-;)
- ヾ( ' - '*) ヾ(＠⌒ー⌒＠)ノ ~ヾ ＾∇＾ ~ヾ(＾∇＾) ＼(￣O￣) (｡･ω･)ﾉﾞ (*^･ｪ･)ﾉ
- (￣∠ ￣ )ﾉ (*￣Ｏ￣)ノ ヾ(｡´･_●･`｡)☆ (/・0・) (ノ^∇^) (,, ･∀･)ﾉ゛ (。･д･)ﾉﾞ
- ＼(°o°；） (｡´∀｀)ﾉ (o´ω`o)ﾉ ( ･ω･)ﾉ (。^_・)ノ ( ・_・)ノ ＼(-o- ) (。-ω-)ﾉ
- ＼(-_- ) ＼( ･_･) ヾ(´￢｀)ﾉ ヾ(☆▽☆) (^ Q ^)/゛ ~(＾◇^)/ ヘ('◇'、)/ ヘ(°◇、°)ノ
- ヘ(°￢°)ノ ヘ(゜Д、゜)ノ （ ゜ρ゜)ノ ー( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ
- Happy: (●´∀｀●) (｀・ω・´)” ヽ(；▽；)ノ (*´・ｖ・) (((o(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)o))) ☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆ (⌒▽⌒)☆ ⊂((・▽・))⊃ (≧∇≦)/ (´･ω･`) （’-’*) ∩( ・ω・)∩ (*≧▽≦)
- ＼（＾ ＾）／ Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ （ ´∀｀） (^～^) ＼（＠￣∇￣＠）／ (☆^O^☆)
- (★^O^★) (☆^ー^☆) (´ω｀★) ＼（Ｔ∇Ｔ）／ ヽ(*≧ω≦)ﾉ *(*´∀｀*)☆ Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ ヽ(*⌒∇⌒*)ﾉ d=(´▽｀)=b ＼(*T▽T*)／ ヽ(‘ ∇‘ )ノ （*＾ワ＾*） (＾Д＾)ﾉ (´∀`) (°◇°;) (゜▽゜;) (/^▽^)/ (ﾉ´ｰ`)ﾉ ヽ(´ー`)ﾉ ( ＾∇＾) ＼( ｀.∀´)／
- (●⌒∇⌒●) o(≧∇≦o) ヽ(｀◇´)/ ヽ(*・ω・)ﾉ （＾ω＾） ｡◕‿◕｡ ⊙ω⊙ ⊙△⊙ o (◡‿◡✿) (∩_∩) (•ิ_•ิ) (/•ิ_•ิ)/
- Hiding: |･ω･｀) ﾍ(･_| ｜−・;） |ω・） |_・)
- Kissing: (´ε｀ )♡ ～(^з^)-☆ |°з°| （＿ε＿） ('ε') |(￣3￣)| （￣ε￣＠） （*＾3＾）
- (´ε｀*) (○´3｀)ﾉ (☆´3｀) (*￣з￣) (づ￣ ³￣)づ （○゜ε＾○） (TεT) (-ε- ) （＠ーεー＠） （*＾3＾）/～☆ ლ(|||⌒εー|||)ლ
- Laughing: （・∀・） （ ´∀｀） （⌒▽⌒） （＾ｖ＾）
- Mellow / Whatever: ヽ（´ー｀）┌ ┗┐ヽ(′Д、`*)ﾉ┌┛ ヽ( ´¬`)ノ ┗┃・ ■ ・┃┛ ヾ(´A｀)ノﾟ
- ヽ（・＿・；)ノ ヽ( ￣д￣;)ノ ＼（〇_ｏ）／ ヽ(。_°)ノ ＼(;´□｀)/ ヾ(*´ー`)ノ ヽ('ー`)ノ ヽ(ー_ー )ノ (´～｀；） ┐('～`；)┌ ヽ（*ω。）ノ (;´・`)> （＾～＾）
- Painful: ☆⌒(＞。≪) ☆￣(＞。☆ ~(>_<。)＼ ヘ(><#)ノ (。_＋)＼ (xLx)ヾ /(*ι*)ヾ (ノ><)ノ ／(x~x)＼ ◎☆（♯××）┘ ヘ（。□°）ヘ
- Sad / Crying: ｡･ﾟﾟ･(>д<;)･ﾟﾟ･｡ (。┰ω┰。) (*´；ェ；`*) (゜´Д｀゜) （ｉДｉ） (´；ω；`) 。ﾟ(ﾟﾉД｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡ ヽ(´□｀。)ﾉ (ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ {{p´Д｀q} ヽ(●ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ●)ﾉﾟ ( p_q) .・゜゜・（／。＼）・゜゜・． (个_个) ((´д｀)) ( ≧Д≦) ｡゜(｀Д´)゜ (。┰ω┰。) p(´⌒｀｡q)
- Scared: (ノдヽ) ヽ(ﾟДﾟ)ﾉ (／。＼) （／_＼） （／．＼）
- Shocked / Surprised: ( ꒪Д꒪)ノ (((( ;°Д°)))) ((((；゜Д゜))) （゜◇゜） （￣□￣；） ∑(O_O；) ＼(>o<)／ ━Σ(ﾟДﾟ|||)━ Σ(゜ロ゜;) Σ(゜゜) (*ﾟﾛﾟ) (」゜ロ゜)」 щ(゜ロ゜щ) (ﾉﾟ0ﾟ)ﾉ~ ⊙▂⊙
- ⊙０⊙ w(°ｏ°)w L(・o・)」 (○o○) （・□・；）
- Shy / Embarrassed: ^_^;) (^^ゞ (^^;) (#^.^#) ('-'*) (*^^*) （＠´＿｀＠） (⌒_⌒;) (#｀ε´#ゞ （*/∇＼*） (〃￣ω￣〃ゞ (*´ｪ｀*) (*´∀`*) (*´_ゝ｀) (*´∀`*) (/ω＼) (*ﾉ▽ﾉ) (*ﾉωﾉ) （/｡＼) （。-＿-。）
- Singing: ヾ(´□｀* )ノ （＾Ｏ＾☆♪ ＼(^o^)／ (´▽｀)ノ♪ "ヽ(´▽｀)ノ" ヽ(´▽｀；)/♪ ヽ(´・｀)ﾉ ヽ(○´∀`)ﾉ♪ ヾ(´ρ｀)〃 ヾ(´〇｀)ﾉ (´△｀)♪ (ﾉ´▽｀)ﾉ♪
- Sleeping / Waking Up: ［(－－)］zzz (´～`) ヾ(。￣□￣)ﾂ ヾ(￣0￣； )ノ ヾ(。￣□￣)ﾂ ヾ(。￣□￣)ﾂ ヾ(￣□￣;)ﾉ (。-ω-)zzz (-_-) zzz (∪｡∪)｡｡｡zzz
- Smug: ー(￣～￣)ξ (`へ´*)ノ (￣^￣) （￣へ￣） （￣～￣;） (￣ェ￣;) (-、-) ( ；｀ヘ´)
- o(´^｀)o (￣ω￣;)
- Winking: （＾＿－） (－ｏ⌒) （＾＿−） (^_-) (^_−)☆ (⌒.−)＝★
- Worried: (ーー;) ( ；´Д｀) （；￣ェ￣） ヽ(￣д￣;)ノ (￣◇￣;) ヽ(￣д￣;)ノ （−＿−；） (~_~;) ((*゜Д゜) (･_-｡ ) ⊙﹏⊙ ミ●﹏☉ミ (-'๏_๏'-) (⊙...⊙ ) ( ´△｀) (;° ロ°)
- ヽ（゜ロ゜；）ノ （°o°；）
- Stars / Symbols: ━━☆＞＾） ☆彡 ★彡 ☆彡 ★彡 ☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆ `*:;,．★ ～☆・:.,;*
Ping
Society is so fucked up. It seems as though, when you’re in a relationship and you really trust someone and love them with everything you have, and for some reason they end up cheating on you, you look really stupid to everyone else because you trusted this person so much, yet they cheated on you. At least thats how I interpret whats going on in society. But that is so not fucking true. Why am I stupid for trusting someone that I was in a relationship with? How in the world is that stupid? If anything you should be stupid that you didn’t trust the person you were going out with. Now, the fact that someone cheated on you, yeah it fucking sucks but you know shit happens. You decide whether or not you want that person in your life and you continue. For me this is some sort of magical revelation because I don’t know, I just feel like I could never fully trust someone. I would probably have used this as an excuse in the future, if they did cheat on me because I’d be prepared. I’d be “one step ahead”, I would already know that they had cheated on me. But what kind of relationship is that? The one where there is no trust? It is stupid. And I’ve been falling for this. I question a lot, too much sometimes and thats affecting my relationship. I’m not sure whether its naive or not to blindly trust EVERY SINGLE THING thats someone is saying… it probably is. I just want there to be the utmost trust between my boyfriend and I.
